Day 3 and 4 have brought on extreme mood swings. My energy was so very high, but what was going on in my head was not so high. There were thoughts of “Why are you doing this?” “This is so stupid.” “It’s ok just a little bit of this piece of cake, bread, sandwich won’t hurt you.” My mood became very uneasy. A war has taken place in my body. The organisms that are being asked to pass, are not going down without a fight. Mind you, I work in a kitchen for as my full time job. There is temptation EVERY where.
Yesterday, day 4, left me wore out and exhausted. It was a very hectic day in the kitchen, and to have to stop every hour to drink was such a challenge. For anyone that has ever worked in food service, you know on a busy day, you work 10 hours straight and you are lucky you get a bathroom break, mind you a lunch break. I left work exhausted and defeated. I came home to take a nap, but the nap became rest, my body and mind was RE-SET to a higher vibration.
As, driving to work this morning feeling brighter and energized, I meditated on my experience with Amma, the hugging saint, humanitarian from India. Going to see this woman I had heard so much about, I was very skeptical. How could a person who goes around the world hugging people be so life changing? As I sat in the conference all, and saw her enter the room I got it. Her aura speaks. As my time approached to be hugged, I was unaware how miraculous it would be. In a brief 30 seconds, she rocks you from side to side, says a mantra in your ear, kisses you cheek, and that’s it. There were no thoughts in my mind, just utter peace, and compassion. Amma goes around the world doing this, sometimes for days until people get her hugs. Her hugs awaken that divine love in others, to be comfort those who are suffering.
So thinking of Amma led me back to the intention, the purpose for this cleanse. I pushed my ego aside, and the thoughts that were not mine; I am doing this as much for me, as well as everyone reading, anyone who eats the food I serve, who attends yoga classes, who interacts with me in life. I am doing this so I can be the best, most effective servant to the universe, and to help others to ROAR. I am doing this for you, because you are me and I am you.
Which brings me to a mantra…..SO HUM, HUM SA……..meaning I am that, that I am. It has brought much ease in the suffering of these past few days. There is no separation. As we help ourselves, we help others.
Why not give it a try, sitting comfortably with a tall spine, either on a chair or on the floor, close your eyes, and notice your breath for a few moments, letting all thoughts melt away and start the mantra meditation……inhale the word SO, exhale HUM, inhale HUM, exhale SA, inhale HUM, exhale SA, inhale SO, exhale HUM. Doing this for as long as you like, at least 5 minutes to begin. If any thoughts do arise, just give them wings and float away to be reestablished back in the universe.
May this have served you to ROAR and to the realization that ALL IS SELF.